To Start a Day.

Wearing my thick, black Wing Lee cotton cardigan I can't help but feel a little more of the better me, and a little less of the worse.

Positive and joyous is how I feel.

I woke in a cradle of all kinds of love; Filial, romantic, erotic, unconditional love. Love between I and Chloe, Love between Daphne and her, Love between them and Jessie, and Love between Jessie and I. Circles of love, and mountains of love, in our hearts, in our thoughts, in our actions and in the air.

What a perfect way to start the day =o)

I made my fresh carrot and apple juice, I packed the soup I cooked so lovingly last night so I could take it for lunch, and I sat under the hum of the bus and read. I fell into the cool crisp morning and basked in the light blue sky and sunny warmth.

I played with my workmates and am now settling into some good work, with a good attitude.

This is the way to start a day.

Another Day Another Dollar

Naaaa naaa, Naaa na na na, Na na na naa, Naaa naa - Duff da da, Da Pa Pow!

Another day another dollar. Chilling at work on my lunch break.

I went to see Phantom last night which was a bit of a disappointing production to tell you the truth. The story and music were good enough but I wasn't much of a fan of the cast. They just didn't hold up the stage or the set that well. The company was magnificent though. A lovely girl with gorgeous eyes. Small sweet hands and a voice I adore.

I gave the kittens a bath which they didn't mind, then felt kind of bad after rinsing them off in the shower; that - they really didn't like =p.

I had a really great ride in this morning. Had a positive morning so far. Today marks 6 months at WA Business News!! It's quite good. Slightly nervous about my scheduled pay rise, seeing as I've not been getting target recently.. =/. We'll see tomorrow I guess, at my review meeting. Just had the paper reading and there was lots of wine divi'ed out for the success of last week's 40under40. I'm pretty happy to be working at the company. They've got some really great fresh ideas and attitudes towards business.

Not sure if I'll go to the BizLink Seminar tonight. I probably should, it'll be good for networking. But I would like to celebrate my 6 month milestone.

Had a nice salad for lunch. Lettuce, mint, canellini beans, beetroot and fetta - covered in balsamic vinegar and olive oil. Yum.

Anyway. Time to get on some calls ;)

The Show

Today I'm at work then tonight I'm going to see Phantom of the Opera with Jessie Stoelwinder.

It's her first full day of university and I'm excited to hear all about it. I'm looking forward to going there myself. I'm looking forward to smiling at her and having a drink with her. Then seeing the show with her. It will be time well spent indeed.

Can't wait for the show ^^

Second Look

Sitting at work, I'm lightly thinking over me, my week and my days - my life. Only lightly thinking though, like a girl lightly brushing her fingers across a lavender bush as she ambles along a path.

I'm content, but with rushes of towering joy and jagged frustration. They come, constant and unabating. They ripple the surface of something deeper. From experience I'd call that 'something deeper' a discontended soul. But what would I know?

I've grown, surely. I've learnt and developed and I have an evolved view point compared to that I had 3 years past.

3 years past, the beginning of my adult life. What have I achieved?

1. I've got a more rounded idea and concept of love.
2.I've got a lover who I love, who I respect and cherish.
3. I've got a property that's almost funding itself, and that will grow a into a nice little security blanket and launch pad one day.
4. I've got 2 darling cats who I love.
5. I've been on a few holidays - Singapore, Hong Kong, KL, Melbourne, Bali.
6. I've got experience at WA Business News, dealing with businesses and developing more of a feel for things.
7. I've had experience at Westnet where I saw and learnt from my first corporate environment.
8. I've maintained 1 semi-decent friendship from school. Which other than J is my only real one.
9. I'm gradually getting closer to my family.

What are my opportunities from here, short term?
1. I'll focus on, develop, and strengthen my relationship with Jessie Steolwinder, who I must remember is a separate person to me.
2. I will go to uni second semester and develop some keen skills, to match my desire and ambition.
3. This will also allow me to develop some really important new friendships and grow my own circle of friends.
4. I'll pay off some debt.
5. When I can afford to I'll join a club or class with people of my own age, so I can again grow more friends.
6. I'll start keeping this blog maintained, to keep me focused and clear.

Media.

One of the articles in the West today said - “Tough economic conditions are tipped to hurt beef and lamb sales this year as shoppers opt for cheaper meat such as chicken, according to new industry forecasts.”.

Cycles in what’s popular are always going to happen, and they could have just as easily have said “Chicken Sales due to profit!”, or something else just as up beat.

Just goes to show how a lot of what’s going around might have a much more positive spin to it.

A Many Men.

I'm weary, so I will be brief.

Today I was a loving father, a kind lover and a casual youth on a short wall by the bus stop.

On the bus I listened to words of knowledge of I learnt, and gained wisdom and insight.

After the bus into town I became a lesser being but still laughed and past time nonetheless.

Once on the journey home and at home, I applied what I'd learnt in the morning.

Tonight I benefited from that learning. I laughed, I danced, I kissed, and I loved.
I was a friend, a best friend, a lover and a father.

And just now I've read another text, and in has poured more insight.

I am growing.

I can't really be bothered writing a great deal as I've had a long day, I'm mentally tired and just don't have the inclination to spend any serious amount of effort on anything other than setting my guilt at bay for not blogging, and then floating my way over to bed where I'm certain that sleep will take me quickly.

I was writing a comment to Leigh which had the sound of a decent blog, and the thought of missing the opportunity to create at least the semblance of a blog out of a bit of simple cut and paste action was too horrible to bear.

Before I do action that however, I will pose a question. Why is it that we seem to get most emotional, sensitive and thought possessed in the very last moments of our day?

Is it that it's taken us the whole day until then to completely wake up and be ready for those things?

Or do you think it's the inspiration of the darkness outside, or the romantic reflected light from the moon that does it for us?

Me personally, I think it's that we're so darn tired at the end of a day from thinking about what we need to do or who we need to please. I think in a subtle but effective fit of exhausted rage we simply swipe clean that metaphorical desk in our minds and are left only with that which we can never truly detach ourselves - our feelings and deepest, 'most important' thoughts.

I've been listening to a podcast recently which I've been quite impressed with. It took me a while to get over the cheesy title which I won't embarrass myself here by naming, but it really does have a mammoth pile of pearly wisdoms. Most of it is of that obvious kind where when you hear it it rings true instantly, because really you always knew it all along, but amongst your habits and 'things you need to do', you forgot to consider it.

I've found it's often these things that you 'forget' to consider that can have the greatest impact on your life when you do in fact consider them. And I don't really think we ever actually forget to consider them, I think that really we're just frightened of the effort that will be required to action the changes we know we just need to make to our lives before we drown and suffocate in a life of our uninspired creation.

*sigh*

Anyway. Here's the excerpt.

"Fair enough. And will you be doing a personal stock take in these first weeks of the new and exciting year Leigh?

I've been well. Enjoying the buckets of rest and thinking about the near future (being this year) in a vague sort of way that suggests some kind of internal subconscious laziness, fear or lack of enthusiasm for really figuring it out. Is this the disease of our age that I can feel the vibe and effects of so much when I look around?

But hey, on a second to second, minute to minute, day to day kind of level I'm actually really quite pleased.

The cats are lovely and I've been to the beach a few times these past few weeks which has been lovely too.

You should really come over sometime. Do you get on the road much weeknights?"

Goodnight.

And you know really, I'm quite proud of myself. College must have taught me something because there wasn't once spelling error in that entire thing.